God healed my mind, my marriage, and my body. I have written and talked about these three things over and over again. I have told this story time and time again to groups at First Glance, to our church, and really to anybody who would listen. I needed to. I had to. And what better way to end the story than by telling them I was pregnant. Years of emotional hardship, difficulty in our marriage, struggle with infertility, and the “happily ever after” is that we get to have a baby!! It’s the perfect ending right?
That was NEVER my message. Every time I told that story, even if you look back at my blog posts, I say I didn’t like ending with my pregnancy because I was afraid it gave an unclear message. The unclear message was, “If you believe in God, everything will work out perfectly.” It’s not true. I didn’t believe that then, and I don’t believe that now. I talked about it at the funeral. John 16:33 says, “In this world you will have trouble, but take heart I have overcome the world.” Jesus never says that following him will make life easier. I’m not sure why we Christians often portray this message. And, as I told my story of healing, I too feared communicating a false message. In fact, every time I talked about this story of healing and pregnancy, I would even say, “I fear this seems a little too ‘happily ever after.'” I would always end my story with the reason I was telling it. God, the creator of the universe, interacts in our lives. That’s the message. And that is still my message!Isn’t it amazing that God, who created universe, desires to interact with us in our lives? God did when he healed my mind. God did when he continued to prepare me in a variety of ways throughout my pregnancy. God has in so many ways over the years, both in large and small ways. So I hope to make my way back to all those groups that I told this story to. Because even though the ending was more different & difficult than we ever could have imagined, the message is still the same. God interacts in our life!!! He wants to, and if we allow him to, He does.
Romans 8:26-27 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.