For months I’ve been listening to this song, Scandal of Grace. The phrase “to give all I have just to know you” has continued to challenge me. What does it mean to give ALL?
Tim and I recently went to Turkey to visit our dear friends who are doing some amazing ministry there. In Turkey when you commit to following Christ, you risk losing everything: your job, your family, and your life as you know it because it’s a predominately Muslim culture. It’s a serious commitment, and yet God asks all of us for the same thing – to be ALL in. Yet, we don’t have to sacrifice “all” in the same way, at least not in the tangible way so many do in Turkey.
Not too long after returning from Turkey, I had a conversation with a guy who was talking about his marriage. He said, “I’ll do anything.” I asked him the question, “would you really be willing to do anything?” Before the words got out of my mouth the question shot back at me. I thought about when I’ve made that same statement, often times in moments of desperation. But is that true when it comes to following Christ? Are all those songs I sing, those words to “I Surrender All” really true? Would I be willing to do anything? Am I willing to do ANYTHING? As I thought about the song “Scandal of Grace” I questioned would I “give all I have to know you?” I then thought about my interaction with Christians in Turkey, this conversation and all of it combined has continued to challenge me.
As I think about these concepts this is where I tend to fall short: small distractions. I’m not worried tragedy will come and shake my faith or keep me from being all in, maybe because I experienced one and realized the only thing I could do in that circumstance was cling to Christ. If I’m honest, I’ve been more concerned about small distractions. For a couple years now I have researched sermons, asked other believers, and continued to try and figure out how not to get distracted. To live in a way that is intentional and focused on bringing God glory in ALL areas at ALL times, and ultimately, giving “ALL I have to know Him.”
This is a picture of me preaching at the pulpit at the Church of Laodicea in Turkey… I didn’t have many listening 😉 Revelation describes this church as lukewarm. It seemed like the right picture for this blog as I am fighting so hard against becoming “lukewarm” or distracted.