Month: March 2018

Decorating a Hotel Room

One of my many charming characteristics is that I really like things the way I like them.  I will get ideas and thoughts in my mind on how something should be and I strive until it’s that way.  Tim often teases me about it, knowing that if I don’t buy the exact thing I want, then I will eventually buy the “exact thing I want.”  He’s learned not to talk me into something that is “almost what you want.”  It’s not that these items are the nicest or most expensive, it’s just what is in my head and it’s hard for me to go with something different once it’s there.

But I have to be honest in saying I struggle with this trait.  I think of James 4:13-14

Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.”Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 

It’s true, we really are only here for a little while.  Jesus talks about this not being our home, and yet I work so hard to make it comfortable and “exactly the way I want it.”  I compare it to decorating a Hotel Room.  If I said I was painting the hotel room I was staying in for a vacation everyone would think I was crazy.  Why would I spend so much time on something that isn’t permanent and isn’t going to last?  Why does the hotel room color matter?  And yet this is what I do here on earth.  Why do I spend my time and money on so many things that won’t last?  Not just physical items but so much time consumed in ways that don’t matter… that have no eternal value.

Don’t get me wrong I do desire and value rest & hobbies and do make time for those.  But   in the past couple weeks there has been several events in my life that have caused me to be aware of the spiritual urgency around me!   Since then there have been many desperate hours before God begging for Him to intervene.  But it’s also reminded me of this idea that I’m “decorating a hotel room.” It has caused me to pay attention to where the minutes of my day are going.  Last year I started saying yes to requests as long as it met one of two requirements.  1.  I got to tell people about the hope and love of Jesus OR 2. I would inspire others to do so.  This has been a great way for me to keep my time focused.  But on the small things… the day to day moments, I’m realizing I am wasting a some of them.

So I continue to try live with intention, and not decorate a hotel room.

**Don’t worry I found an app to keep track of time so I can do better 😉

Monday Momentum

This… I love this talk in particular because she talks about three things I have been challenged to do before I heard this, but sometimes have felt “extreme” for doing them.

  1.  Pay attention to what you put in your mind “Jesus died on the cross for things we willingly watch on tv.”
  2. The more time we engage God the more we want to engage God!  Don’t engage just enough to get through the day.
  3. Continue to sacrifice, for His glory.

Three weeks away… yikes

As I sit and write this we are three weeks away from Akron Women on Purpose 2018!  I’ll be honest in saying I woke up a bit nervous.  As I’ve said before, running a women’s conference is not my passion or call, not even close!

The reason I host this is because this is me being obedient to the next step.  This is something I feel God has asked me to do because I really believe that if every women is obedient to just the next step God is calling her toward, we would see radical transformation!  I know it!

Since this isn’t my natural calling, I am so reliant on God for all it – for speakers, for the details, and for those who are going to attend.  I take it all seriously, and since the beginning of the year I have been seeking God so intensely, eliminating anything that I could put in my mind or body that would prevent me from being in tune with Him.

Today I sat and prayed for the leadership team and started to pray for every seat in the auditorium.  I so desperately want this day to bring God glory!  I so desperately want women to feel empowered to go be on mission with Him!!  Can you imagine the amount of spiritual transformation in our city if every women was?!!?

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IMG_0274.jpgTruth be told, I also do all the things above to make sure I’m functioning out of the Spirit and not my flesh.  I do this to combat the desire to impress those who are coming, fight against the intense spiritual warfare that comes with hosting this event, and to make sure my motives are never based out of fear.  I am so very human and work so hard to stay connected to the God while leading this day.

My desperate prayer each day until the event will be that every woman will feel amazingly loved by our creator and would be obedient to the next step God is calling her toward.