One of my many charming characteristics is that I really like things the way I like them. I will get ideas and thoughts in my mind on how something should be and I strive until it’s that way. Tim often teases me about it, knowing that if I don’t buy the exact thing I want, then I will eventually buy the “exact thing I want.” He’s learned not to talk me into something that is “almost what you want.” It’s not that these items are the nicest or most expensive, it’s just what is in my head and it’s hard for me to go with something different once it’s there.
But I have to be honest in saying I struggle with this trait. I think of James 4:13-14
Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.”Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.
It’s true, we really are only here for a little while. Jesus talks about this not being our home, and yet I work so hard to make it comfortable and “exactly the way I want it.” I compare it to decorating a Hotel Room. If I said I was painting the hotel room I was staying in for a vacation everyone would think I was crazy. Why would I spend so much time on something that isn’t permanent and isn’t going to last? Why does the hotel room color matter? And yet this is what I do here on earth. Why do I spend my time and money on so many things that won’t last? Not just physical items but so much time consumed in ways that don’t matter… that have no eternal value.
Don’t get me wrong I do desire and value rest & hobbies and do make time for those. But in the past couple weeks there has been several events in my life that have caused me to be aware of the spiritual urgency around me! Since then there have been many desperate hours before God begging for Him to intervene. But it’s also reminded me of this idea that I’m “decorating a hotel room.” It has caused me to pay attention to where the minutes of my day are going. Last year I started saying yes to requests as long as it met one of two requirements. 1. I got to tell people about the hope and love of Jesus OR 2. I would inspire others to do so. This has been a great way for me to keep my time focused. But on the small things… the day to day moments, I’m realizing I am wasting a some of them.
So I continue to try live with intention, and not decorate a hotel room.
**Don’t worry I found an app to keep track of time so I can do better 😉